Surrender ...... again

Well I turned it over this morning. I rehired my sponsor. He imediately gave me some Good Orderly Direction. Thats all I want. Just tell me what to do. I dont wanna be friends. When I call I dont wanna force conversation. Just get me through the program. I read the 1st step on accident in the Alanon How It Works book and realized I was ver much on that step. So thats pretty convenient. Maybe I will be able to function in society again in a few weeks. Right now Im just failing. I hope I can stay the coarse and take the suggestions.